I gave everything I could so I can end up having no regrets. But there are just wars you can never win, so you'd have to choose your battles. You need to know when to face forward and when to walk away. Not every issue deserves your attention, time and effort.
We broke up about 3 weeks ago due to individual differences. God knows how much tears I've cried when he left. But when he came back, feels like he never did.
This wasn't the reationship we shared. He wasn't the same guy I fell in love with. From a guy who tells me he loves me everyday to some stranger who doesn't even ask how my day went.
I miss the forehead kisses too. His jokes to make me feel better after a tiring day at work. And all the good stuff we shared from a not so distant past. I mean, come on. That wasn't a long time ago. We had all that about 3 weeks prior to the break up.
He ignores me a lot now. I feel like I annoy him whenever I'd try to start a conversation. He often shouts at me as if I always do something awful. Everyday since he came back.. he never failed to make me feel unwanted. More than anything else, I feel so alone and the relationship is just one sided. Ako na lang ang may gustong ipag patuloy at ako na lang ang nag mamahal.
I am grateful he gave "us" another chance to make it work. However, things changed. And right now, holding on is doing me more damage than letting go. Why would I choose to win the war if I wouldn't be receiving the ample prize as a victor. I want the "old" JaRox back but I can never get it back. Not anymore.
